One of My Favorite Movies of All Time...

I'm Desperate to Be Twenty-Four...

I’ve got so many dreams, so many things I want to do.

I want to move to Portland, Oregon for about a year and a half while I go to college and get my diploma in Baking & Pastry. Of course my fiance is going with me, and we will both be trying to get into the Art Institutes College.

But at twenty-four, I’m absolutely sure I’ll be done with college. And hopefully I’ll be working at a bakery, building my career.

But the point is, I want to be married. There’s two dates I have very much in mind: June 28, 2014 (a Saturday), or June 28, 2015 (a Sunday). Hell, if I could, I’d be getting married June 28, 2010! I love him that much.

Sure, I love being 18. I’m fine with just dating. But dating, anyone can rip apart. But marriage? That’s a different story. Everything’s more serious. I feel like what Alex and I have together will be more set in stone if we’re married, instead of technically only “boyfriend and girlfriend.” Hmm, it seems so juvenile. I want something more. I’ve already got a ring on my finger, and there’s no doubt we are perfect for each other…

I know good things come to those who wait, but is it so wrong to want to just skip the waiting? I’m impatient.

Being 18 is fine, but he truth is, I just haven’t done anything with my life yet. If I died today, all they would be able to say about me was that I graduated from high school. But what else, really? Nothing.

I absolutely love how my life is right now. I wish I could say I wouldn’t change a thing, but maybe just one thing. Just one: taking our relationship to the next level. Where it matters. The world doesn’t care if you’re “just dating,” but if you’re married, you have a right to be together. Nothing can easily rip you apart.

At least, I know it’ll be that way for us.

I’m already waking up to his face every day, and loving every moment of it. I just want to grow up already, get out of this town. Be something, someone. And I want to do all of that with him by my side.

My New Engagement Ring!

My other engagement ring, depressingly, lost its finish. This is a gift from my fiancé as my 18th birthday/graduation gift. :) I’m so in love! (With him and the ring, hehe.)

The Story of Our Love...

Modesto High School Prom, 2010

Mr.Shephard and I met a year before we started dating, my sophomore year in Mr. Saechao's Algebra class at Modesto High School. He had long hair, which I really found unattractive and until he cut it, I honestly wasn't interested in him as more than a friend. In class, he would go to sleep while I was trying to concentrate and he would snore so I'd throw my eraser at him and make him get it for me. Pretty funny stuff. I put my number into his phone one day because I wanted to be friends. So we got to texting and getting to know each other. He gave me a lot of advice because I was heartbroken over someone who I was with before him. It helped a lot. So we'd text each other a lot and a year went by, and he cut his hair that summer. Then I was in my junior year. Then I was interested. Hehe. He asked me out and we started dating October 28, 2008. Our first real date was going to see Twilight together, on November 28, 2008. On our one month anniversary! It actually ended up being a coincidence... My mom caught him at the house while she wasn't there and we got grounded for a week. But she knew how important it was to me so she just told me to clean the house and we could go. It was so funny, while she was driving me there, we saw him when we were almost to the movies, riding his bike to the movies, poor thing. It was cold weather around that time. Well, I mentioned he'd go to sleep in that math class, earlier. Well, that fucked him over. In December he was shipped off to a continuation school, Elliott because he was a senior and was behind in his credits. So here came January. He went to Elliott, riding his bike there and back every day, (6 miles total) for 6 months. The only time he'd get a ride back from his dad was when it rained. Or he'd be lucky enough that his dad would give him a dollar to take the bus. So we dated, seeing each other mainly on weekends until summer came around and we'd hang out more. Then school was back in session. I was a senior, and he was still going to the Elliott. October rolled around, and then our 1 year anniversary! He proposed! That's when I became engaged. I've been planning ever since. He started spending the night on weekends, so instead of leaving he just stayed with me. I went to school and until March, the staying on the weekends continued. But when March rolled around, I was almost done with school and he finally caught up on all his credits, so he was done with school too. My mom let him move in! So from March to July we lived together at my mom's until we came to Oregon and in between that time, I turned 18 in May, and graduated early June. Here it is now, September 30th, less than a month away from our 2 year anniversary. And that's our story! I'm still planning our wedding and have a lot of things set in stone. It's great. :) But that's for another post.<3